How often do I say to myself that I trust God? I echo it many times during the day that I know He is good. I know He is with me and for me. Yet, if you watch how I respond to what I encounter in my day you would often think that I was living in a world that was out of control, unpredictable and ready to crash. I find myself moving into paralysis. The other morning when I was feeling this way and was even praying out of that kind of fearful spirit God’s whisper to me was a kind rebuke, “Roy, No more excuses! Do NOT walk in fear over this situation. Trust me and step out in faith.” It was so clear I stopped to write it in my journal.
Did I know what a courageous step of faith should be in this situation? YES. Did I want to take it? No. It would make a mess of my schedule, possibly costing me time and money. It would sure cause discomfort to seek out, spend time with and ask some hard questions of another person. Fear was being fed by my awareness of the sacrifice.
But sacrifice is the language of love. And I am called to love God and others. So — okay God — let’s go. I am stepping out by faith that you will be more than enough for what I am facing.