Can I enjoy mystery, adventure and not dictating an agenda or destination?

Ruth Haley Barton paints an enticing but also downright scary view of the Christian life.

“The journey of transformation requires some measure of willingness to relinquish control and give ourselves over to a process we cannot fully understand nor can we predict the outcome. If we are not comfortable with mystery, we are not comfortable with the very gospel we preach. We know we will be more like Christ but we cannot predict exactly what the person of Christ lived in and through us will look like or where it will take us.”

In the past 6 months I have moved to a new place in my spiritual life.  I am showing up each morning as Jesus’ friend and his servant.  I trust him to have the schedule for the day.  I may have my plans and to-do list — but I am holding them much more loosely.  And the joy, peace and surprises are delightful.

The hardest part is when people ask me for my plan; my goal; what I am going to do with my life.  I thought when I got to 60 I would have all of those questions answered and instead I am discovering it is better to write everything in pencil and keep a finger posed over the “delete” key as Jesus whispers for me to change my course.