I am a member of a pastor’s prayer group. Recently one of the men shared of a whisper of the Spirit he received during a period of worship.
From God, “It is OK to doubt yourself. BUT do not doubt Me!”
As I have reflected on those words a recent reading from Oswald Chambers seemed to be saying almost the same thing as he wrote about Jesus’ words, “Blessed are the poor in spirit…” The first rule of living in the Kingdom is to own our poverty before God. We must be aware, feel and come to God as one who is poor. Perhaps that includes all of those times when I doubt myself and see very well my frailty and weakness. BUT — while poverty is the true state of my self never, never, never, doubt God.
Do not doubt Him as you stand there holding a few pieces of fish and bread.
Do not doubt Him when the storm is raging and the boat seems to be going down.
Do not doubt Him when you are in prison and they are sharpening the ax.
God has been working, will keep working and He is working right now, in this very moment.